another parted post

10:26

The day has already proven itself to be a wash. Maybe not a wash, but definitely an annoyance. Part of me wishes I never came back to Hometown and wants to go running and screaming back to where I came. I have work to do, that I began, only to find out that the work I had already completed was recently removed from what I was required to do. So, time wasted.

The weather is shit today. Freezing rain. No bike ride.I really needed that ride.

There are other things. Although they are minor, it has still been frustrating to have disappointment slap you in the face with every piece of the plan, even the minute details. I feel like I should “check in” with my feelings, but I’m so tired of caring about my moods and how I feel that it’s not even funny. It’s gotten to the point where I’m forced to accept the day for whatever it brings and abolish the urge to develop new plans as my day evolves. Be prepared to seize opportunities when they appear. It’s hard for me to do sober.And in my parents’ very cluttered and disorganized house,. There’s too much disarray here. I can’t think. Can’t be productive anyway. I should’ve brought drugs.

I refuse to let my current perspective become the predictor of today’s photo, so photo later. We’re not done here. Good things are bound to happen. They have to. I can’t continue the day believing it will be shit, otherwise I’ll never make it.

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10:47

Why is “home decor” a frequently used tag and not “hope”? Surely, I have used the latter more frequently. Silly WordPress. And why does “should’ve” always get caught by spell check? What the fuck is that shit? Is it not a real word now? Whatever. I’m gonna go get pretty. I have a baby shower to attend.

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A friend died today. The day certainly didn’t turn out the way I expected.
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Good thing there’s oblivious cats. Walter Kroncat’s gettin big.